Interviewer: It's your service and the men like you
that we, the people that weren't there,
need to realize and get an understanding
of what you soldiers were going through,
through what we think is peacekeeping.
Is there any other stories that can make
us realize how lucky we are to be able to
speak to you people today?
Well, there's, there's tonnes of stories, I mean,
there is many events that take place during
the course of a day, or a course of a mission
that has a, has a marking on you.
I walked through of, you know,
I walked through a city or drove through a city of,
of bodies laying on the side of the road, like,
hundreds of them, thousands of them,
I saw a hospital who had pile of body maybe
twenty feet high in front of the, you know,
just laying there and, and you wonder how it
got there and how what you doing in the
middle of all this. You know the first sight
I had when I came, I landed at the airport,
I think it was May 5th, landed at the airport,
got into a jeep with another Canadian and
he drove me home, he said, oh, by the way,
when we get up that hill, be careful,
there's a dead woman in the middle of the
street that's rotting away,
and the smell of that was, you know, just terrible.
So, that is the first sight, that's within
fifteen minutes of arrival. I mean, that's the
biggest shock you will ever, ever see,
I will ever experience in my life.
So, every days brings a story similar to this,
you know. You're, you're either negotiating
for something or you're dodging bullets.
You're, you're trying, you get frustrated
because the UN is not there and cannot
provide you with the resources you're looking
for and you're wondering all the time
why am I here, you know, who, why should,
you know, why should I care when nobody
else really wanted to care at that time.
So, those are hard questions to,
to ask a young soldier, or a young officer,
to answer all the time.
So, you know, that's your own little interior
an interior dilemma that you're stuck with.
So, bad moments, yeah, the moment you get
up to the moment you die you go to bed is, is,
is, is, is not a great moment, and you wonder
when are you going to get out of there.
And, and, and all those things come,
comes back, I guess, and haunt you,
later on in life.