Flashbacks

I have flashbacks sometimes and I'll, I'll feel like I'm, I'm in Croatia sometimes and it's, it could be anything. Could be a noise, could be just, could be, often it's a loud noise or something of that nature, but it, it, I, I can be transported back there and it's like I'm back in a second and it's, it's very difficult.There was nothing in, you know, there was nothing in place, but you know we were all feeling, it wasn't like I was alone. There's, I've gotten a lot of help like, since, when I went for help there was systems in place and I, I received a lot of help. So I've got no complaints that way, but back then there wasn't and a lot of people, you know, I didn't go for help until I got back from Afghanistan, but there was a lot of people that there was nothing in place for them. I, I lost a good friend of mine to suicide. He went after Croatia ‘cause he couldn't go back. His unit, like I said, we were there with 3rd battalion. Our unit was, was 2nd battalion and they were overseas when we got back. They were in Croatia and a lot of us felt like we were letting them down by coming back and a good friend of mine killed himself ‘cause he couldn't face the fact. He was, he felt he was letting them down and he couldn't go back to Croatia. I mean, it affected everybody differently, but it, it did affect everybody. There's no doubt in my mind.