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Feelings of Disbelief

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Feelings of Disbelief

Interviewer: But seeing those mass graves and the amount of death and destruction around you, can you describe for us what is was like to witness that? Oh boy, shock. I am going to describe feelings I suppose, that’s the best way I can go. It was shock, anger, disbelief, frustration because I know in Rwanda we tried to go help this village and we were warned, this, this and that and one side said we won’t bother them. The next day we went back there and the side that said we will not harm them came back and everybody in that schoolhouse was just machine-gunned down, massacred. So it’s like a well of being abandoned especially when the higher echelons of the UN there guaranteed the safety and it didn’t happen so it is like frustration, abandoned, anger. I’m describing feeling here. Again, this statement, is this really happening, is this real? You’re there but it’s like a movie type of thing. And it doesn’t sink in until the tour is over type of thing because you are busy doing other stuff that you’ve been trained over and over and over, you know, how to aid casualties and all this stuff so you go into this mode of helping out Canadian soldiers, so on and so forth, and yeah…

Witnessing the devastation all around him, Mr. Allaire recalls the emotions he felt during his time in Rwanda.

Denis Allaire

Mr. Denis Allaire was born December 25, 1962 in Timmons, Ontario. As a young man, Mr. Allaire recalls his decision to join the military as a selfish opportunity for financial and security reasons and enlisted on a bet. He trained as a medic receiving trades training in Cornwallis, Ontario, OJT in Trenton, Ontario and then six month training at Borden, Ontario Medical School. Joining the 5 Field Ambulance Division as an army medic, Mr. Allaire deployed overseas, his first deployment being in 1993 to Croatia, then Rwanda followed by two tours to Bosnia. After 24 years of military service, he discharged from the military. Mr. Allaire retires having a great sense of pride for his contribution and is thankful that he made that decision in life to join the Canadian Forces.

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Veterans Affairs Canada
March 9, 2010
Person Interviewed:
Denis Allaire
War, Conflict or Mission:
Canadian Armed Forces

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